Following Yachen to the cafeteria, Si Yue took his seat and glanced casually, suddenly saw the doctor from last time sitting obliquely in front, with a drink tube in his mouth talking sideways to the people beside him, as if he sensed that someone was looking at him , he looked up –

“Yo! Girl!” A mouthful of white teeth flashed blind.

“…” Youyou stared at him, and Siyue said softly, “Hello.”

The doctor said a few words to the people beside him, and walked over with a plate.

“Ya Chen, this is really strange, did you actually bring out your younger sister to make everyone look good?” The doctor sat down and teased with a smile.

Yachen raised his head from the menu and blinked blankly: “Ah? Qiwu, what did you say?”

Picking up the chopsticks, the doctor shook his head and sighed: “You are hopeless.”

“Eh?!! What’s wrong with me?”

The two started discussing the question, and Siyue rested her chin in a daze.In fact, she never understood how the surgeon and the pediatrician got to know each other…?

“Girl~ I said girl… You should look over here, hey!”

A helpless voice came from her ear, and she woke up from her thoughts: “What did you say?”

“…” The doctor looked at the two of them helplessly, and finally heaved a long sigh: “Let me tell you, why do you two like to be distracted?”

Yachen ignored him and asked for two set meals.

“Doctor, can you check the condition of my left hand after dinner?” Si Yue rolled up his sleeve, revealing the bandage.

The doctor with food in his mouth nodded, swallowed it hastily, and leaned forward to look at her face: “Well~~ The injury on the face is almost healed, but girl, is your complexion too pale? Do you have anemia? sign?”

“No.”

Even Yachen couldn’t help but look sideways at such a decisive answer. He remembered what his second brother had told him, and asked, “Si Yuesang, why don’t you take this opportunity to have a full body checkup? Okay?”

Stretching out his right hand to hold his left wrist, Siyue remained silent.

Seeing that the atmosphere was a bit frozen, the doctor picked up the plate and got up: “Yachen, I’m done eating, I’m leaving first. Girl, remember to come to my office later, and I’ll see if you need to change your medicine.”

“Okay, excuse me, doctor.”

The doctor smiled and walked away with long legs.

Lowering his head, two eyes fell on the top of his head, and Siyue nervously stirred his fingers.After organizing the words in her lips, she raised her head to meet the gentle gaze, and said softly: “Mr. Yachen, because I was often hospitalized since I was a child, I really don’t like to deal with those cold things. Now my body is really sick. Healthy, I hope Mr. Yachen can understand me.”

The girl’s pale cheeks could faintly see the bloodstains that were about to dissipate, and her clean black eyes were full of firmness. After staring for a moment, Yachen suddenly changed the subject: “Speaking of which, the story told by April Sang is really touching. What can I ask? Where did it come from?”

Slowly curling her fingertips, Siyue stabilized her turbulent breathing, and said with a smile: “When I was in the hospital when I was young, a big sister told me this.”

At this time, the package was delivered.The two stopped talking and ate quietly.

***

After eating, April went to the surgery to change her medicine, and returned to the pediatrics department amidst the doctor’s chatter.Sitting by the window, she glanced at Yachen, who was asking the doctor gently, from time to time, curled the corners of her lips, took out her mobile phone and silently took pictures.After looking down for a while, she turned to look out of the window. The sky was as clear as blue, and the golden sun was dazzling.

After sending the patient away, Yachen turned around.The side face of the girl looking up at the sky was extremely indifferent, her clear and shallow eyebrows were no longer soft as usual, but revealed a faint loneliness, and her dark pupils were as thick as ink that could not be melted.

“April Sang,” he whispered.

The girl followed the prestige, her back was facing the warm light, her whole face was in a haze, her expression could not be seen clearly, only her pointed chin was clearly visible.

“Mr. Yachen?”

“Ah… Si Yuesang, I want to ask you, do you want some water?” He rubbed his hair to hide his embarrassment, and smiled shyly.

The girl shook her head, Yachen opened his mouth and was about to speak when there was a knock on the door, he had no choice but to give up and continue working.

Siyue smiled, stood up and leaned out the window, pedestrians came and went in the courtyard.Suddenly, there was a burst of wailing from the opposite building, she squinted her eyes and looked around, and finally fixed her eyes on a window on the fourth floor.

The woman rushed to the hospital bed and hugged the person on the bed tightly, obstructing the nurse who wanted to push the bed. The mournful and mournful cries kept echoing around, with deep despair, jumping into the ears and making people’s eyes flush.

Blinking, Siyue looked at her blankly, watched her being pulled away by someone, watched her reach out to the hospital bed hopelessly, watched her push away the people who imprisoned her, and staggered to catch up with the hospital bed.

There was a strange feeling in her heart bit by bit, her clear vision suddenly blurred, she raised her hand to touch her eyes in a daze, her mind went blank.

The crying gradually faded away, Siyue looked away, took out a lemon-flavored drink from her bag, unscrewed the bottle cap, and eagerly took a few sips.

The sour juice washed away the tightness in the throat, and a bitter taste filled the mouth.She looked at the window again, but it was empty.

——Is there anyone who will cry for her like this?

She thought of Chishige, Meihe mother, the biological parents of this body, Rintaro’s father, and many people, and suddenly felt empty in her heart, as if nothing existed.

A burst of exhaustion hit, Siyue sat on a chair against the wall, and slowly closed her eyes.The cries of children around and Yachen’s soft coaxing voices quietly dissipated, and the low humming voice of a woman flowed in my ears.

***

The dense rosy clouds enveloped the sky. Standing in front of the garage, Siyue raised her palms and slowly opened them. The flaming rays of the sun seemed to be torn apart. Through her fingers, she looked up at the fragmented sky and smiled slightly.

“Si Yuesang, I kept you waiting, let’s go in.” The man behind him said with a gentle smile, and the sound of footsteps followed.

She suppressed her smile and stood there waiting for Ya Chen to come up and walk side by side with him.

As soon as she stepped out of the corridor, she heard the sound of Tsubaki and Mi playing. Siyue pulled herself together and walked down the stairs. Looking around, she found that the Asahina brothers were all present.

Mi ran after Tsubaki around the sofa, her big eyes sparkling with excitement.

“Idiot Mi~~~ Can’t catch me? Hehe.” Tsubaki made a grimace, sweat dripped down the tear mole at the corner of his eye, which looked crystal clear under the reflection of the light.

Zao took a puff of cigarette and shook his head helplessly: “I said Chun, how old are you and still care about Xiao Mi?” Chun just wanted to refute when he saw the girl standing at the stairs, and suddenly changed his tone: “Sister sauce~ you I’m back~”

Hearing this, Mi immediately ran up to hold her hand, pouted and said, “Sister Siyue, Ah Chun is a bully! When I was picking me up from school, I saw a female classmate and said it was my girlfriend, hmph, I It’s not like he’s bothered!”

Chun: “Hey Xiao Mi! Don’t slander my reputation!”

Zao squinted and said, “Do you still have a good reputation?”

Yusuke: “I think Brother Zao is very reasonable~~”

Azusa: “Yusuke, I heard you said a few days ago that you are going to take an exam. Have you got your results yet?”

Yusuke: “…” There is no such threat!

You want to prop your head up and smile lazily: “Oh, our house hasn’t been this lively for a long time.” The eyes on the side are getting darker, and the expression is obscure.

The last time it was so lively, it was her welcome ceremony, right?After a year, things have changed.They were still waiting in place, but there was no news of the man.

The light glanced over the faces of everyone, and looked at the girl: “Si Yuesang~ How are you getting along with the big brother today~? Just now, A Zi was looking upstairs from time to time~”

Zi, who was named, paused and frowned, “I—”

“Isn’t Brother Chun the same? As expected of twins~ even their minds are synchronized.” Feng Dou interjected without looking sideways, and the atmosphere of the living room changed suddenly with his yin and yang words.

Chun frowned fiercely, and said in a low voice, “Fengdou, why are you talking?”

“Eh~~? Am I wrong? Brother Chun is clearly in love and won’t let you say it~?”

“Fengdou, you’d better take back what you said!”

“do not do that……”

“Hey Fengdou, why are you doing this?”

…………

……

The living room became chaotic in an instant, with the sound of arguing mixed with voices of persuasion.Mi looked around anxiously, looking up to seek help from April——

“…Sister Siyue?” He was in a daze, the girl’s pale face was as calm as paper, and her lips were devoid of blood.

Siyue stared at her toes without focus, and the surrounding voices were buzzing. She felt that her soul was gradually leaving her body, and the coolness began to spread from her fingertips.

“Mr. Light.”

She made a soft sound, and the whole space fell silent in an instant.

“I just want a home.”

Being a human being in two lives, when she wakes up from a dream in the dead of night, she always wonders, is she a wrong existence from the beginning?

“There is a gentle mother at home.”

When she opened her eyes in this life, what she saw was her mother with an indifferent expression, a woman with slightly dull facial features.

“There is a strict and kind father.”

Next to her was the sad-faced father. He swallowed his clouds and didn’t even look at her. He bent his back, scratched his hair and muttered to himself.

“If possible, one or two brothers and sisters are also good.”

They suddenly quarreled, speaking a language she couldn’t understand, and she could feel the complaints, unwillingness and resentment in the words even through the text.

“The family is noisy once in a while and always harmonious, just live like this.”

That’s it, that’s it… It turns out that I was not expected to come to another world.

Thinking casually, she struggled to open her eyelids, and the sunset outside the window was as red as blood, eerie and beautiful.

“I just want a home like this.”

“Isn’t that okay?”

Accompanied by a trembling voice, the girl raised her head, and her jet-black hair slid across her cheeks.When she raised her eyes, her glazed pupils couldn’t reflect anyone’s reflection, the corners of her eyes were red, and her lips were tightly pursed.

“I don’t want to know what Mr. Guang is expecting. I just know that I can’t respond to you.”

She lives in this world with the memories of her previous life. Whether it is suffering or happiness, she can only recall it over and over again, and then she will look at her body blankly.

“I’m going back to my room to rest first.” After she said that, she let go of Mi’s hand, turned around and stepped up the stairs step by step.

The living room was dead silent, including Yachen who was standing on the other side of the stairs and Youjing who came out of the dining room, everyone was shocked.

***

Siyue squatted at the door of the room, hugged her knees tightly, and lowered her head.A whimper overflowed from the depths of his throat, low and thin, as if trying to suppress his sadness.

You Jing who caught up stood behind her with clenched fists. This quiet and smiling child could not even cry.

Siyue sometimes couldn’t help thinking that it would be great if she was Zhizhong’s biological daughter. The woman who reached out to her when she was hiding and crying had a smile like a flower and was as gentle as water.

Zhizhong will look at herself with beautiful eyes full of warm light, she will call “April” with a soft tone, and her face facing the sun is so warm that people want to cry.

It doesn’t matter if it’s used or cheated… She just wants Zhizhong to love herself more, for this, she is willing to do anything.

A pair of warm iron arms stretched out from behind to embrace her, and she stopped crying for a moment, and she remained silent without saying a word.

The so-called new life is just a lie. She thought she could integrate into it and was eager to integrate into it, but it turned out that she who was not expected was just deceiving herself.

Siyue broke free slightly, but her arms tightened more and more. She lowered her eyes and stared at the overlapping shadows on the floor, dim and blurred.

“Mr. Youjing, I want to go back to the United States.” She whispered, her voice like flowing water was slightly hoarse.

You Jing suddenly opened his eyes wide, and a strange color flashed across Shen Hai’s eyes, and he said shyly: “Si Yue-san, the light is not—”

“Mr. Ukyo, I’m tired.”

Zhizhong will not love her, and Meihe’s mother will not love her.

She was never expected.

The author has something to say: Don’t abandon me because of BE

So the double update… Are you really going to talk to me? (????ω????)?

When coding this chapter, my eyes were silently red.It was just an exit point for April, and the sadness she had accumulated for a long time burst out at this moment.

PS, if there are those who can’t accept BE, I can write a few episodes of sugar to satisfy you.Let me know that you are reading the article, dear——! !

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april quotes

Memories and reality overlap together, true and false, false and true, do I really exist?